Adams Family Correspondence, volume 10

Abigail Adams to John Adams, 8 March 1794 Adams, Abigail Adams, John
Abigail Adams to John Adams
My dearest Friend Quincy 8 March 1794

Half an hour ago your kind Letters of Febry 23 & 25 were brought to me.1 I was at my station the Bed of our Parent when they were deliverd, who again renewd Her blessing with the Testimony of your having been always a kind and dutifull son. my duty towards her as your parent, and as an excellent woman whom I love respect and Revere shall in all points be fulfilld, but the scene is sometimes too much for me, and pains me to the Heart. I will not afflict you by the recital. last Night an ulcer upon her Lungs broke & dischargd to day 102 she seems rather Easier. I have left her just to return home and dine. mr storer brought me your Letters, and by his return to Boston I have wrote you a few Lines. I deliberated some time whether I should write you at all till I could say our dear Parent was at rest. I now most Sincerely join with her in hopeing that the hour will speedily arrive for she has finishd her course and done the work assignd her, and I doubt not she goes to reap the Reward of a well spent Life. God Grant you the support & comfort you need

Under a Bereavement which my next Letter must to all Humane appearance inform you of, most affectionatly yours

A Adams

tell mrs otis I will write her when my mind is more at ease

RC (Adams Papers).

1.

JA’s letter of 25 Feb. thanked AA for her continuing care of JA’s mother and requested that Susanna Hall’s funeral take place from the Old House, if JA’s brother Peter approved. JA also commented on the heavy duty of chairing the debate over Albert Gallatin’s senatorial election; he concluded, “I have done so much of this patient Drudgery for five Years, that I am quite Satiated with it” (Adams Papers).

Abigail Adams to Abigail Adams Smith, 8 March 1794 Adams, Abigail Smith, Abigail Adams
Abigail Adams to Abigail Adams Smith
My Dear Child, Quincy, 8 March, 1794.

I received your kind letter of February 12th, as well as one, by Mr. Storer, of February 2d.1 I have been every day since thinking that I would write to you, but a superior duty has occupied all my time for six weeks past. I have been only two days (when I was too sick to attend) absent from the sick bed of your grandmother. Your desire, that her last days might be rendered as comfortable as it is possible to make them, has been fulfilled. There has been no attention on my part, nor any comfort in my power to render her, that she has one moment wanted. She had spent a day with me the week she was taken sick. A severe storm had prevented me from hearing from her for a couple of days. I then learnt that she had a violent cold, as it was supposed. I went immediately to see her, and found her sick with a lung fever. Her granddaughters have been affectionate, tender, and watchful of her, but she has lived all the days of her appointed time, and is now ready to depart. Her senses are bright and quick, her hearing better than for years past. Upon looking back she has no regrets; upon looking forward she has all hope and comfort. Her hourly wish is to be at rest. She took her leave of me this evening, with her blessing upon me and mine to the latest posterity. I told her today that you desired to be remembered to her. She asked 103 me if I thought that there was any thing, which she had, that you would accept of. I answered, that what she had I thought her granddaughters, who were with her, deserved, and that I was sure you would value her blessing more than any thing else. “Well,” she replied, “I pray God to bless her and her children; and tell all who belong to me to consider, that a virtuous and a religious life is the only solid comfort upon a death-bed.” She has mourned much, since her sickness, that she should never see your father again; but she now seems reconciled to the thought of her approaching dissolution, which cannot be far distant. She has no rest, night nor day, her cough is so constant and troublesome; and she can take scarcely any nourishment. If she had reached the 17th of this month, she would have been eighty-five years old. I can say with Pope upon a similar occasion, “that my constant attendance upon her has indeed affected my mind very much, and lessened my desire of long life, since the best that can come of it is a miserable benediction.”2 “Nothing,” says Seneca, “is so melancholy a circumstance in human life, or so soon reconciles us to the thought of our own death, as the reflection and prospect of one friend after another dropping around us. Who would stand alone, the sole remaining ruin, the last tottering column of all the fabric of friendship, seemingly so strong, once so large, and yet so suddenly sunk and buried?”3

Present me kindly to all my friends. In some future letter I may notice several things in yours; but my mind is too much solemnized by the scene before me to add any thing more, than that I am / Your affectionate mother,

A. Adams.

MS not found. Printed from AA, Letters, ed. CFA, 1848, p. 364–365.

1.

Neither letter has been found.

2.

Alexander Pope to Jonathan Swift, 28 Nov. 1729, The Works of Alexander Pope Esq., 9 vols., London, 1751, 9:113.

3.

Alexander Pope to Robert Digby, 1 Sept. 1722, same, 8:43.