Adams Family Correspondence, volume 6
1784-12-14
I have been so much taken up these four or five days, in copying both for my Pappa and Mamma, that I have not been able to write at all for myself. I expected that Mr. Tracey and Mr. Jackson would not leave Paris till next Monday, but I dined with them this day, and they seem determined upon setting out the day after to morrow: I shall see them to morrow for the Last time, and have therefore only this evening and morning for writing.
You can imagine what an addition has been made to my happiness by the arrival of a kind, and tender mother, and of a Sister who fulfills my most sanguine expectations. Yet the desire of returning to America still possesses me. My Country has over me an attractive power which I do not Understand. Indeed I believe that all men have an attachment to their Country, distinct from all other attachments. It is imputed to our fondness for our friends, and relations; yet I am apt to think I should still desire to go home, were all my friends and relations here. I cannot be influenced by my fondness for the Customs and Habits of my Country, for I was so young when I came to Europe, and have been here so long; that I must necessarily have adopted many of their customs.
But I have another Reason, for desiring to return to my native Country. I have been such a wandering being these seven years, that I have never performed any regular course of Studies, and am deficient on many Subjects. I wish very much to have a degree at Harvard, and shall probably not be able to obtain it, unless I spend at least one year there. I therefore have serious thoughts of going in the Spring so as to arrive in May or June; stay a twelve-month at Mr. Shaw's; (who I hope would be as kind to me, as he has been to you and is to my Brothers) and then enter college for the last year, so as to come out with you. I imagine that with steady application I might 33in one year, acquire sufficient proficiency, in all the Sciences necessary, for entering the last year. . .1 however I know not whether I shall do any of these things, for it is still very uncertain whether I shall return next Spring or not.
I have been this day to see one of the greatest curiosities that P
Your Mamma in one of her late Letters3 desired I would get a Violin, for you. Will you accept of that I left at home? My Mamma tells me that Mr. C. Warren had it when she came away; but if he has sailed for Europe, as he intended, he probably left it. I shall never make any use of it, for I have not touched a violin Since I left America: and I fansy I should not be able to get so good a one for you here.
Believe me to be, my Dear Cousin, your sincere Friend
Examiner, 20 Dec. 1855. Some damage to the text where the seal was torn away. Missing words supplied from newspaper copy..
Elipses in MS. On JQA's plans to enter Harvard, see Cotton Tufts to JA, 26 Nov., and note 3, above.
The seventy-two year old Charles Michel, Abbé de L'Epée, had just published the third edition of what JQA, below, calls “his complete System”: La veritable manière d'instruire les Sourds et Muets (1784), and was working on a dictionary of manual signs for the use of deaf mutes, which was com-34pleted after his death. The Austrian emperor, Joseph II, sent a cleric who learned L'Epée's system of instruction and returned to Vienna to establish that city's first school for teaching deaf mutes. Hoefer, Nouv. biog. générale
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