Diary of Charles Francis Adams, volume 3
1829-12-09
Morning at the Office. Continued my Writing which I carried on with spirit and rose from it with an impression that I had done famously. How very deceptive is self judgment. We incline most impartially to judge and yet the little whispering spirit within us distorts every thing till others know not what we would intend, and then scorn and derision follow the result of the deception. I thought I had clearly shown my talent, and perhaps I have erred in believing even in the existence of any thing extraordinary. At any rate my time passed very rapidly and I had no leisure for any thing else. My interruptions having become much less numerous than they were previous to my father’s departure, I am now able to perform much more than at any previous time since the Spring, and I hope what I may do will result in some useful purpose.
After dinner I was occupied as usual in my portion of Aeschines which I read with more pleasure than usual as it was uncommonly easy. Mrs. M. B. Longhurst sent me a part of her rent due on account of the House in Tremont Street and I was very glad to be able to receive it, as at last it brings my Father out of all his embarrassments for this Quarter at least. After my time for Aeschines was done, as Mrs. Everett and Abby were to go to Mrs. Hale’s, I sat and commenced a letter to my Father in which I stated to him fully my causes of trouble in study. He has written me very usefully heretofore and will I hope continue to do so. I could not conclude before it was time for me to go, as Mrs. Hale had a small party of friends and must not be neglected. These small parties of friends are great bores in general and this was assuredly no exception to the rule. It was apparently given to Alex. H. Everett and his Wife. I was tired to death and very glad to get away quite early, as I felt exceedingly fatigued.