Papers of John Adams, volume 18
I this day received your Favour of April 8th, and Sincerely condole with you under the Loss of your amiable son. These Afflictions are the Lot of Humanity and so little of the System of which We are a Part is Submitted to our View, that as We never can discover the Reasons of them, they are left only to our Reflections and Submission.
My Situation, would be eligible, to the Heighth of my Wishes, if I Saw a Disposition in this Country friendly to mine, or even friendly to their own true Interests. but the Fact is far otherwise.
To See, as I do the Affairs of my Country every where labouring under Embarrassments; to know that Thousands are looking up to me, for relief, from their distresses, and to have no Power to do the least Thing for their Assistance, is painfull, beyond all Expression. You Speak of Honours, Madam. But what Honours have been decreed to me? Do you Suppose I am honoured in this Country?
The Reffugees indeed, honour me, now and then as you see in the Newspapers.1 You Speak of Affluence too. If I were my own Master and could Spend what is allowd me as I Should choose, I should live in Affluence indeed, but when you consider that I have a 311 Rank to support here that I hold in Trust for others, and that this rank cannot be let down, without betraying that Trust, you may depend upon it, I am driven to my Wits Ends for means.
I know of no change at Braintree or Weymouth in their political Friendships, but one Thing I know, that a good Profession, or even trade is better for the Individual than all Politicks.—2 Our Country will do like all others—play their Affairs into the Hands of a few Cunning Fellows, and leave their faithfull Servants to close their long Glories with a sigh to find
Th’ unwilling Gratitude of base Mankind.3
Yet I dont wholly approve this sentiment. Human Nature is not ungratefull. But while many rate their Merits higher than the Truth, it is almost impossible that the publick Mind Should be exactly informed, to whom they are really obliged. Real services are never held out to View. The Modesty of the Individual, the Jealousy of Rivals, or the publick Interest require that they should be concealed. do you wonder then that ostensible Pageants should be adored, while those who moved the Springs are neglected.— I expect my turn and am prepared for it, in my own mind. My Family and Circumstances are not prepared for it by any means. Yet they must come to it. I always foresaw it and shall meet it firmly.— at least I believe so. I wish my Friend Warren in public Life, because I know he would be usefull there. But his numerous Refusals I am informed, are made Use of, against him, and I really fear will prevail. I expect to be, myself in private Life, very soon, and in his Neighbourhood, And I dont despair of going even sometimes to Plymouth Inferior Court, to get my bread and my Boys through the Colledge. The young Rogues shall not be dissappointed of their Education, if I am obliged to draw Justices Writs to obtain it.4 I am obliged in Europe to Spend immense sums in Support of dignity, but I’le be hanged,5 if I trouble my head about it, in private Life in America.
With Sincere Esteem, I have the Honour / to be Madam your Friend and / humble servant
RC (InU:Signers Library Coll.); internal address: Mrs Warren.”; endorsed: “London May 24 1786 / John Adams. LbC (Adams Papers); APM Reel 113.
The most recent “honour” to which JA likely refers was Lord George Gordon’s assertion, addressed to the Marquis of Carmarthen, in the 3 May London Public Advertiser that JA received his salary in quarterly installments from the Comte d’Adhémar, French ambassador to Britain. The charge was especially awkward because Gordon gave as his source Simon Tufts Jr., a loyalist refugee. Cotton Tufts’ nephew, and AA’s first cousin.
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For the course of the controversy in the London newspapers, JA’s anonymous rebuttal of 9 May, and AA’s account of the incident, see her 22 July letter to Cotton Tufts (
AFC
, 7:279–281).
For AA’s views on the same subject, see Mercy Warren’s 8 April letter, note 2, above.
Pope, “First Epistle of the Second Book of Horace,” line 14.
The final sentence of this paragraph was likely entered after the letter was completed and signed, for it was inserted into the space remaining on the page.
AA crossed out and then reentered this word above the line.
I have received your of Decr. 23d. & have since received from Mr. Jay our secretary of State for foreign affairs, the papers you refer to, with particular instructions from Congress, which I shall carefully attend to—1
Your demand as you state it is a Debt contracted before the peace— But you know there is a great misunderstanding between the two Countries, concerning such debts & in my opinion there is not the least chance for obtaining any thing for you or any of your fellow sufferers, while there is a law of one state upon the Continent in force against the recovery of British Debts— those laws in all probability have prevented the evacuation of the Posts upon the frontiers—the payment for the negroes & even a treaty of Commerce— I know the delicacy of the subject but untill those laws are repealed, in my own opinion, I shall labour in vain, & spend my strength for nought Congress have received or will soon receive from me, official dispatches which will convince them where the difficulty lies
It is a distressing situation that I am in, the Letters I write to Congress are not & cannot be made public, and therefore the public mind cannot be informed of the difficulties I have to encounter, while thousands in Every state are suffering under Evils which they think are in my department & Power to remove— Nothing in my Power to be done, While I remain in Europe, shall be omitted, but I have sufficient Reasons to believe that nothing will be done, untill the time I mentioned2
Yours
LbC in WSS’s hand (Adams Papers); internal address: “Samuel Austin Esqr.”; APM Reel 113.
For the claims of Austin and three other merchants for merchandise seized at the British evacuation of Boston, Congress’ action supporting them, and JA’s instructions, see Austin’s 23 Dec. 1785 letter, note 1, above.
One of Austin’s fellow merchants, 313 Samuel Partridge, wrote to JA on 6 April 1786 about the matter, indicating that he was being pressed by creditors in London (Adams Papers). In his 25 May reply to Partridge (LbC, APM Reel 113), JA was equally pessimistic, writing that “it would be cruel to deceive you with false hopes and I assure you I have myself no real ones.”